Liquid-Alike

In the end of the day, before leaving my office after work, I am making this story for you joyfully, dear readers. Just enjoy to read it, OK!

Once in a city park I met a stranger. He is a Psychologist who began to chat with me when I was looking around. I wonder he had long minutes followed me since at the first he directly looked at my eyes and stopped my walks. How surprised! Why I had long walks alone in that very big city is a first question he asked me. I tried not to look too surprised or anxious by answering him, "Because it's fun enough to do it". He offered me a seat to my next stop after he knew I want to go to Culinary Area in Sabang near Thamrin Street and I said no. For sudden, he successfully made me tell him some stories about my activities and how I could trapped walking alone in that city. He told me back about him and some psychological meanings of mine as long as he knows. I was a melancholic, kinetics, and full of inspiration in his perspective. That's why he followed me. Do you know, how could I go away after all those assessments he just said to me? The conversation was going far and fun enough. I was so rare to meet psychologist who easily says something and tells many kinds of psychological statement which almost hit me.


Well, it’s not the first time for me to meet stranger in my journey. I ever met a Freeport employer in the Train and we talked for about 6 hours. I found that in the middle of employment, he now becomes a new student in Economy Faculty of Indonesia University. I accommodated his wishful stories for his next future and we gave suggestions for each other. I cannot say much about me to those strangers because I am introvert enough. So, in the way we talked, I just responded them interactively. I’m glad that I could blend to the conversation arisen. I’m glad that I wasn’t born in the Middle East where women cannot have their full right to go alone everywhere they want without permission. I’m glad that I have self-reliance as woman to live in this beautiful and chaotic world. As long as I do not take steps regarding my intentions beyond the pale, I will gladly have some journeys again and experience other windows through people, place, or event.

It is a resignation becoming a 23th year-old-girl who doesn't have a partner to do the same thing but enjoys her life peacefully.

Break The Boundary #4

Well, today I rendered up some chats as my ideas and old passion came up. There were two genius friends of mine who told me valuable informations and stories. So, I was fulls of the joy of the harvest time! Just at least I regain my mood to have scheduled dreams again. They lit up an inspiration to reach something I toughly achieve. The two people are genius and genius. Suddenly, one of them, the boy, told me many things about him which impress me and shrink my self. That's why I have a reason to encourage myself. I've followed his twitter for 4 yearsand I didn't know that we have the same passion. He was successfully chasing everything he wants, peacefully. From the beginning he started his career, he didn't target it soarly like I did. Oh God, You are really something. But I never lose desire. Night by night, I break the boundary. I know the door will finally open for me, so widely.

SMG #1

I do not continue one of my hobby in this age after having my graduation or being far from Jogja. Since I stayed with a generous family, instead of coming by a cafe and reading my pocket book in Singosari street (I really want it though) after work I'd rather go home so I don't have late dinner or bedtime or a chat with everybody home. I think I can do that in my precious weekend as planned, but it didn't work as well. Now I miss my times in Jogja so badly!

Bumi Telah Ada di Lubuk Yogyakarta

Di sana, semuanya terjadi. Tempat itu, tak rela aku meninggalkannya. Entah kapan lagi aku dapat menghabiskan banyak hari kembali, di sana. Days and nights for 5 years. Semenjak bumi membawa hal itu, bumi selalu meliputi hari-hari di Yogya. Tak pernah absen. Bumi menitipkan banyak hal sebagai energi. Kugunakan ketika aku merasa hilang arah. Setiap malam aku isi energi dengan berada di dekat hal itu. Pagi sampai siang, terkadang sampai sore aku membawanya serta ke kampus, ke tempat-tempat aku bersama kawan-kawanku berada, kusimpan ia di lubuk hati terdalam yang tak kubiarkan orang lain mengoyaknya. Di ruang kecil itu, di rumah itu, di kota itu, dia hadir meski hanya dalam imajinasi dan rasa sampai pada kehadirannya kembali di tengah kota itu, di pemberhentian keretanya. Aku berangkat dari kamar itu, dari rumah itu, dari dekatnya menuju dekatnya yang mewujud di depan mata. Dari pemberangkatan keretanya, aku pulang ke dekatnya, di rumah itu, di kamar itu lagi. Selama 5 tahun ini, begitu dan begitu. Tak pernah bosan di rasa, malah semakin dalam tak terkoyak.

Di sana semua terjadi, seawal dia datang seperti telah siap mental untuk menjalin hidup bersama selamanya dengan segala angan dan janji. Sampai pertengahan dia terlihat lelah dan asik dengan dunianya, dengan pikiran barunya yang ternyata begitu menyukai kesendirian menyukai petualangan tanpaku yang terkesan tak suka kemana dan tak mau kemana karena Yogya yang sebegini nyaman. Sementara aku tak bergeming, terus mendambanya, tak peduli mulut orang. Sampai akhirnya nanti aku tak tahu, yang bukan di sana lagi semua akan terjadi, dan aku masih tak tahu.

Di sana semua terjadi, waktu-waktu aku merindu, waktu-waktu aku bertemu, waktu-waktu aku sakit hati karenanya, waktu-waktu aku makan dan minum dengan mengingatnya, waktu-waktu aku belajar sambil membayangkannya, waktu-waktu aku tidur memimpikannya. Semua rasa itu masih jelas di dalam sini. Semua rasa itu telah melagu dengan melodi yang abadi sampai mati tersimpan di otak dan hati. Mengkristal tak mau pecah.

Ketika kali ini harus meninggalkannya di kamar itu, di rumah itu, di kota itu, aku ingin membawanya serta namun tak bisa. Kapankah dia yang lain benar-benar di diriku setiap saat? Mengobati rindu yang menggelora.. Meskipun aku sanggup sendiri, aku benar-benar tak mau jauh darinya lagi :(