Rayuan untuk berhenti menujuNya terkadang tersaji dalam bentuk seolah-olah kita telah menujuNya. Padahal yang terjadi sebenarnya adalah kita sedang berjalan menjauhiNya. Tahukah, untunglah Dia Maha Pengasih.

Gravity

We may not to be too in love with someone or others. We can not depend on others.
I wonder, how much concentration of love we may have to somebody else? even to ourselves?
My reason is: (s)he is not always be there for us.
How can we set the feeling in loving someone until it's adequate? Must we be individual creator? for how long? in what type of frequency?
But when I think it over again, to be too in love with somebody else can be a reason for the rising of sincerity in my heart as I experienced it before. (Although, the process of getting sincerity is not simple. It takes long time.) It made me sacrifice to feel the wound, because it hurt enough. So, I ever waded through the deep feeling. I just did not use to be to experience it. I am too scared to feel another wound. So, I made a diplomacy to myself and somebody involved about the boundary. When I did it, I felt something was not in a natural way where it should be. I did it only to save myself, yet it made another wound to another one.
It gets complicated, right?
So, I go back to the theory that we may not to be too in love with somebody else, or else, it will hurt human. In this case, we do prevention. There won't be treatment to cure any wound again. Everything will run adequate.
The problem is, I still do not know how to set the feeling in loving someone. Any idea?


Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.


Gravity - Sara Bareilles

Break The Boundary #2

"Dan yang tidak kalah menarik adalah bahwa reseptor tempat feromon sang senyawa penyebab jatuh cinta (?) beraksi adalah anggota keluarga GPCR. Jadi, dengan memahami reseptor ini bukan tidak mungkin suatu ketika ilmu “pelet” dapat direkayasa dan dijelaskan secara ilmiah."
"Tahun 2011 merupakan tahun keemasan bagi GPCR. Di tahun tersebut beberapa crystal structure baru reseptor-reseptor anggota keluarga GPCR berhasil diketahui dan tersedia untuk umum."

-dosgil-

Ya Tuhan.. hamba benar-benar rindu mengutak-atik peta-Mu yang satu itu. Salah satu Peta tanda kebesaranMu yang menghiasi lembar skripsi hamba, a nuclear receptor or a GPCR's receptor friend. Bilakah hamba meramaikan lagi kancah dunia Kimia Medisinal yang sempat hamba singgahi dalam sekedar waktu itu? Segerakan Ya Tuhan. Hamba sudah bersabar menunggu kesempatan itu.

Break The Boundary #1

Oh really
I want to conquer the time
Oh really
It's only one step closer
Oh really
What is in those words happened
Oh really
At least my soul moved a bit
Oh really
It isn't just a dream
..

A two-compatible-people must have much things to say whenever they are. I find it only in one of my friend, that is how we always keep in touch. I can see whether I can spend my life with someone who doesn't want to share his life with me then I don't desire to share mine as well. I'll say it's like a hell.. Something that I can't handle by my self because it involves somebody else. Maybe I can't choose happiness or sadness in this case.
I share, and someone gives the great soul. It's compatible.

It isn't a childish or cry baby saying because this phenomenon is very universal, it's happened from child to the elder people. Another one said to me in my office (this afternoon when I visited line 5) that it doesn't really matter to have much difficult times in life as long as we have someone who wants to share and care whenever and whatever we are. Someone who never lets you alone. Someone who makes you home.

Manusia Mesin

Iya, dua bulan ini saya tereduksi menjadi manusia mesin.
Cukup sudah. Saya butuh oksigen agar diri saya teroksidasi lagi.

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