Tiap Ramadhan

, saya selalu teringat :
1. Guru ngaji saya, almarhumah mbah Salami. Maafkan muridmu ini yang nggak pandai menjaga amanahmu, beri saya syafaatmu..
2. Teman Ngaji saya, mas Affif (sekarang kabarnya dia berada di PP. Al Munawwir, 100 meter dari pondokan KKN saya.. but still I can't reach you.)
3. Mbah Damsiri, Imam masjid Serang Kusuma, Batur, Ceper, yang sudah sepuh tetapi masih sangat bersemangat menjadi Imam masjid, meski sakit mendera beliau menjadi Imam dan terlihat sehat.
4. Kampung Halaman, yang sangat khas suasana yang terbangun di kala Ramadhan, tak kutemukan di tempat lain.
5. Suara-suara yang kuanggap suara surga itu, hanya di langit kampung halamanku.
... namun aku jauh, jauh dari itu semua saat ini. Kembalikan saya :(

Wearing Kimono

Yesterday, Intan and Lawrisa wore me a kimono after have some demos of Yukata. It was so beautiful. Kimono has so many parts so it needed quite long time to wear. We took some pictures after that. Wow, it was like a celebration for my age now. In Japan, a girl of 20 years old should have a celebration because they’re getting mature. That’s why age of 20 is so special in Japan.
And you know what?
You are reading a blog of a girl of 20 years old before that girl become 21 years old tomorrow morning.
Good news : Finally I wore the real  kimono taken from Japan…! =DDD

 edited setting, Hanami.

Secret Garden #5 :: The End

Love perhaps is similar to taking care of a garden. Hoping that in your garden, a beautiful flower will bloom, a cool breeze will blow in the presence of warm sunlight and occasionally a magical shower.

- Gil Ra Im-

Secret Garden #4 :: Kim Joo Won's Love Letter

I’m telling you now, from all of the poor and alienate neighbor, you’re the only person who receive Kim Joo Won’s first and last hand-written letter. So you can be proud of yourself.

The wind blows and shaken the branches this afternoon. I hope that when you read this letter, it is in an afternoon when the wind is blowing, the tree is branches just like this. So I am hoping that you can see what I can see, stand at the window where I’ve stood before. Lie down on the bed that I’ve lain on. Read the books that I’ve read. If I can do it like this… This can be regarded as us being together. Like this, we’ll also look as happy as other couples…

Finally now I think that perhaps the magical spell we are under is a gift from the heavens. So laugh like a person who received an unexpected gift; if you laugh with your heart, I’ll hear that laughter. Because I am more capable person than you think.

So.. shave my beard nicely, and dress in the clothes that I like. With that, let’s say that we are together. Let’s just pretend that we are happy.. just like the other lovers. 

-Kim Joo Won-

Also, He said when he will make their body swap:

“Don’t love anyone else, only think of me and live alone forever.

Don’t walk too close to Choi Woo Young oppa, I’ll be jealous.

This will be the most selfish choice of my life.

This is my prudent decision, you should respect it.

You always try to look cool Gil Ra Im.

So continue being cool in the future.

You will miss me so much.

Saranghae… Saranghanda.”

Secret Garden #3 :: From Yoon Seul

“Woman is no matter how common she is she can be queen. No matter how noble she is, she can be maid. Depending on how she is treated by the man who she loves..” 

“If the distance is too far, run too him.. If it feels like he’s not next to you, then hug him… You know, there is no love that is so simple in this world.”

-Yoon Seul-

Secret Garden #2 :: Confession

:Kim Joo Woon said:

Gil Ra Im, You’d rather die than become the Little Mermaid. So I’m going to be the Little Mermaid. I’m going to stay by your side like I’m not there and then disappear like bubbles. So I’m outright begging you. I’ve thought about it long time. Didn’t you say you don’t have the right to be my Little Mermaid because you don’t love me? So I have to be. What else is there to do? Of course, to come to this acceptance, I’ve gone through the hardest time in my life, but right now, it’s true that I’m completely fretting over you. While you don’t think about me for even five minutes, I’m thinking of you for ridiculously long stretches of time. So I’ll be the Little Mermaid. I didn’t think we end up in hating you.

:Gil Ra Im replied:

In other words you said, regardless of how cozy we get or how deep we may love, ultimately our relationship is to disappear without a trace, right? All you said, it’s all true. But you fool. Where in the world is there a woman who would foster a tender happy love only to disappear like bubbles? No woman in the world begins a love with a designated end. That’s why we can’t be. For us, there’s no solution.

"Why is this really hard for us? Finally I get to do it..." ~ Kim Joo Won grasps Ra Im hands.

Secret Garden #1 :: Fairy Tale Love Story

Monologue of Gil Ra Im:

There are things that are thought of as fantasies merely because they are far away. That is how it is in the world of stars. Just as it is with people who are too beautiful, they disappear easily. In the books I read in curiosity of his sincerity, this is a passage that grabbed my heart for a long time.

I realize now how beautiful of a person he is. Therefore, how far away he is from me. He will disappear someday, too. Just as people who are too beautiful often do.

Monologue of Kim Joo Won:

Alice in wonderland. Like a fairy tale.

A night when the galaxy penetrated the galaxy. A bad young boy stand there. Such trivial melancholy. He walks at the pace of memories.

Alice in wonderland syndrome. There is such a diseas. A mysterious visual confusion, as though looking the wrong way through a magnifying glass, that has you looking into a fairy tale day after day. A curious yet sad syndrome. It’s certain I’m a victim of this syndrome. If that’s not the case, then why the world do all the moments with that woman, who isn’t anything, become a fairy tale?

 

Alice asked : “will you tell me which way I should go?”

Cheshire Cat replied: “It depends on where you want to go.”

Alice said: “I don’t really care where I go. I want to arrive someplace.”

Cheshire Cat replied: “Then it doesn’t matter which way you go. You have to arrive someplace. If you walk long enough, that is..”