Beauty

Everytime I go travelling around Europe, I always see beautiful view, so much beautiful and well regulated.

It reminds me about what people say that I am lucky to witness all of what I have seen in this special continent.

Everytime I feel lucky, I remember my country. Our nation has a lot of things but there is also nothing much there.

The country, in which I am staying now, has nothing but there are so many things here. Because people here have nothing, they create everything by their own way, with a lot of efforts. They actualize something beautiful, something gorgeous, everything that you have ever imagined in your childhood wildest dream of your best fantasy ever.

But, every magnificent beauty will eventually stop right after your eyes. It seeps a few into your heart and your mind through your eyes to be bits of memory. You can't keep it nor grab it bodily. Otherwise, you ruin its beauty.

Vossendijk 219,

Saat Musim Semi

Photos taken at Keukenhof, Lisse, The Netherland
19 April 2015
 

Hyperreality

Art or creativity can be a way of reflection. It characterizes people's culture and makes human become human being. It can also cause hyperreality towards people's expectation. Let's look how people's emotion is fluctuated when they watch romantic drama, when they listen to a song, when they read imaginary story. They can not take it off for long stretches of time and do it over and over again. Why are those things so interesting, so beautiful, so sad, so melancholic, so heartbreaking? It makes people live their life with their state of mind in limitless imagination. Is it fake emotion? How bad is it? Will it abolish love and harmony? If it is bad, is it that essential to get rid of them all? I ever told you that to this end, love still becomes substantial thing in people's life.

To this extent, people have expectation on one thing, dream of another thing, and imagine a better world to stay in order to keep their happiness inside heart and dispose of loneliness. That is how they live in such way to motivate themselves, to always move on. Paradoxically, hyperreality is fake and imaginary. It stops human to be the real human being. How bad is it if we continuously live in artificial and unauthentic world?

Still we have to use our mind to, at least, imagine it. We always need imagination, don't we?

Tristeza

..From your eyes, I see tears roll down
I realized that sometimes life is hard
and crying at times are not all that unpleasant..

Clear

I don't have enemy and I will not let myself become anyone's enemy or have enemy. If there's misunderstanding between me and the people, I ensure to make it clear and finish the problem right away. I'll say out loud in front of them or even inside people's mind what I must say. This is the way I build my social life because this kind of interaction will make my life better than anything. No burden, no pain left. If I'm the one who's hurt, I will face the person who hurts me and say all the nice things so that the pain reaches its treshold and becomes klimaks until I can say that all is well in the end, that I am relieved enough to go on. For me, getting away is the worst thing that we must not do that. Life goes unfair sometimes, but it only happens in our mind. Actually, eveything in this life is on the way it comes back to an end. If not us doing it as the main role, we will let others to finish the problem with so much burdens because it doesn't belong to them from the beginning. Pity. So, be ready, everytime.

Morning Conversations

#1


Wife: I read something in the novel, Crake said that we are hormone robot anyway. Do you agree? You never be too in love with me, aren't you?


Husband: Oh honey, look on the bright side. You've got to think positive!


Wife: Why don't you just answer me and counter it with good arguments? There is nothing wrong with having some thoughts.


Husband: I don't think I have to. Don't read something like that again. Your mind is your prison.


Wife: Then, what if I call you "Belahan jiwaku..", will you still be indifferent as ever?


Husband: I will still be like this. I will still be yours.


#2


Wife: Every time I open social media, there will always be people publish their selfie photos. Look! Even they are wide-veiled women and married women. I don't think intense selfie is good.


Husband: Just take a rest, honey, it's late at night there.


Wife: You know, I also become ill feel to DSW (an Indonesian artist) because I think her intensity of selfie is too high and severe. I tolerate those who selfie captured by others, not by themselves. At least other people don't want to capture someone frequently unless they are paid. But this, completely mental. I just don't get it why people like to do that. While physic is perishable, selfie is not kind of way to emerge our inner beauty. I avoid publishing my own photos because it doesn't make any sense to show off our beauty in lack-of-art way. That's why I appreciate those who want to improve their ability in photography. You know, people are going crazy nowadays.. their minds are going.


Husband: Let them be, they have the right to do so.


Wife: I think it's not something about right. I ever gave my friend here a selfie photo of beautiful woman from our country, for me she is beautiful. But my friend said, "In what part you say she is beautiful? I can't see any. Even you are more beautiful than her, you know." Then I realize, beauty can't be caught up only from an image. We have to know the people face to face, or at least we see them in the real situation.


(Then the husband was going to work)

What my best friend said about me:

Nek kw ketok galak lho
Introvert
Pemikir..imajinatif..yg kdg asik dgn dirinya sendiri
Tdk mudah ditembus..wkwk
Dadi kw ki ky cewe high class
Kw ki kalem meneng tapi matamu mengawasi memperhatikan dan menilai
Intelek..
Dadi udu cewe2 sing mung ribut manja menye2
Positioning e duwur lah
Tp di satu sisi kw melo
Penilaianmu kdg antimainstream
Hal2 sing mgkn wong liyo ribut mgkn mlh ra mokreken
Tp sing kdg ra dipikirke wong kw ngagas
Nek ro cowo kw cukup pemalu
But your eyes tell everything ketika melihat seseorang yg menarik perhatianmu
Kw yo ckp wani mendobrak tradisi..logic
Is that true?

(Well I do not know if it's true, but as long as I can feel about myself, I would say yes for some of them. We have not seen almost a year as I departed abroad. He is my really best friend in campus and we always have kind of long lined conversation since our first meeting until now. We've gone along in a deep friendship that no one can know. I hope us being remained friend until the end of the time.)

Within The Axes

Being far from you brings me into deep thought.
The light travels from one galaxy to another galaxy while the space in between is continuously stretching.
We both are analogous as two particles which can not stop moving and spinning around until I can not find you unconciously.
As I think we are meant to be together I always try to find you by keep moving on.
Sometimes I think what if I stop moving, can you just find me here in my place?
I am blind and I don't know the map onto you.
I realize that our maps are on God's hand, I pray to Him to unite our coordinates within the axes of the space that He created.
I pray to Him to make us both as one in the endless happiness and full of His blessings.
Aamin