He is number one of a man who can think positively. To mention a few: he never got angry back if I was indifferent to him for long-long hours of days, he will say a lot of commands in order to motivate me when I began to say “I can’t” either explicitly or implicitly, he‘s kind of a man who won’t worry too much about what happens in the future and always do the best with a lot of efforts at the time being. I don’t know, maybe he is also a man who can make risk assessment beforehand of every decision he makes. As simple as those, I’m relieved to be with him.

Iceberg Phenomenon

It’s something like pharmacist giving some drugs to a patient as many as physician’s diagnoses. The diagnoses are based on how many symptoms may appear. In fact, the disease of which the patient suffers from isn’t as simple as the appeared symptoms. Disease occurs not only because of physical defects but also because of psychological defects (sometimes). Sometimes, psychological defects lead to physiological defects. The natural history of disease is actually a complexity. Physician cannot see deeper than what he often diagnoses and gives treatments. In addition, pharmacist can only counsels the patient well as long as the patient are cooperative. The patient himself knows better because he is the one who can feel the abnormality inside his body. So, we often hear news says that despite the patient has come to physician or psychologist, the patient hardly recovers from his disease. Moreover, the professionals have come along with their best treatments ever.

For example, after doing check up to patient’s body through assessing the blood sugar, blood pressure, and so others, physician said that the patient has high blood sugar concentration and low blood pressure, physician will recipe drugs as the diagnoses result. Physician isn’t further responsible for what really triggers the disease, e.g. life pattern or emotional condition. What professionals do services for clients cannot cover all the problems. The problems which are not recognized by them are still great over there. Professionals cannot reach or see it to be fixed all along.

But, why must be Iceberg? Here’s how the image says it all.

OK guys, find me with another chapter of medical/pharmaceutical science! Bubye :*

Unfinished Thought

Kamu tentu nggak boleh menyalahkan anakmu yang mendapat nilai jelek di ujian matematikanya selagi kamu menyaksikan usaha kerasnya sebelum ujian kemarin. Kamu pasti nggak habis pikir kok anakmu  sulit sekali memahami matematika padahal kamu dulu sewaktu masih sekolah, matematika bisa dengan mudah ditaklukkan dengan banyak latihan persoalan. Kamu lihat, anakmu telah juga latihan sekeras kamu. Dulu kamu pikir, temanmu yang tidak jago matematika karena ia malas. Namun kamu tidak berpikir bahwa ada faktor lain yang membuatnya terlihat bodoh di pelajaran matematika. Sekarang kamu tau kan rasanya dapat nilai jelek? Ini nilai jelek pertamamu dan untuk selanjut-lanjutnya. Rasakan.
Kata mas Ubay, Porsi Tuhan pada nasibmu itu total, menyeluruh, dan ngukupi. Hanya letaknya yang argumentatif dengan kamu masih harus berusaha, bekerjakeras dan berencana.

Ayah, bahkan barusan bilang. Boleh saja kau merencanakan menikah di Bulan Besar yang menurut kitab mujarrobat itu bisa membuatmu menjalani kehidupan rumah tangga yang harmonis dan penuh kebahagiaan. Tapi bila ternyata hidupmu tidak bahagia padahal kamu telah dengan rela menunda pernikahan sampai datangnya Bulan Besar, berarti memang bukan rizki kamu untuk bahagia sekarang. Kenapa kamu bisa nggak bahagia? Ya karena faktor lain.
Atau kamu sudah bekerja keras mencari nafkah, bahkan kamu sudah berhijrah kemana-mana mengadu nasib, namun kamu tidak lekas kaya pula. Karena memang belum rizki kamu. Kamu bisa berspekulasi apa pun terhadapNya, namun jangan pernah berhal negatif karena jiwamu selalu ada ditanganNya. Itu hanya akan membuat dirimu terlempar ke kiri dan semakin ke kiri. Kurangkah oksigen yang kamu hirup?

Kamu memang harus terus berjalan tanpa peduli batu kerikil jurang maupun samudra. Tapi kamu nggak boleh lupa bahwa bahagia itu sesederhana kamu menikmati secangkir teh setelah kegagalan ujianmu, atau mendapati dirimu membantu orang kesusahan yang kamu temui di jalan padahal kamu juga sedang susah. Kamu puas kan?
Oh ya.. Kamu jalan dan menaklukkan tantangan kan memang buat mencari kepuasan. Buat apa yang lain coba? Nggak ada yang lain kan? Hey. Memang pula kamu nggak ingin cepat punya anak dan menikmati gelak tawanya? Kamu terlalu berencana memikirkan hidupmu agar nggak terlalu mainstream. Mengapa tak sekalian kamu bercita-cita menjadikan dirimu Titanium?

Dan aku masih nggak paham kenapa..

Woman

It is hard to be woman. Particularly for my sister. It is the second time she experience bleeding when she begins to pregnant. Her life is hard because sometimes she can hardly see her life beyond the imperfection. I find sometimes she is grateful to have her only daughter. But she desires a lot to have another baby, likewise the other moms do. She must realize that the happiest moment in her life is the moment when her only daughter was born safely in the early years of her marriage. As I want to have four kids someday who will be born naturally from my uterus, I understand how hard her condition is right now. She must against her disappointment towards her destiny and try harder to have another chance. I remember that I gave her a bouquet of flowers after she did curette safely, it is because I felt empathy loosing the baby and encourage her to have another try that someday she will surely pregnant again. What matters is that I worry so much towards the condition of her uterus and the tissues around. I hope there will no complication at this time and the next next time as I often read the articles mention that uterus, servics, ovarium can be very sensitive if it is not well taken care. Who can guarantee those safety? God can. Dear all men in the world, treat your lady with love, care, respect, value, and good protection. Treat her as equal and never do violence as you will never know how deep woman's feeling that can make your world stays warm, happy, and beautiful.

Engaged

Start from this day, it will be different from the days before. I am officially waiting for him. The man whom I usually call when something is going wrong in this last 7 years of my life.

My DRI Between 23-24 Y.O.

Thanks Harvard, School of Public Health! Take yours here.

Existence

#I've been so long observing my face and my skin when I was a senior high school student this night. I believe that there were encoded genes inside me. My body wasn't as perfect as now. So were my friends'. Furthermore, what are those genes? How do I up-regulate or down-regulate them so that  my body won't be too early aging? Dear God, thank you for gimme a life!

#I've been accidentally posing my hand in a way in which it put above my vein in my down leg. The beats was strongly dazzled me how I always lose my mind. It goes to the never-world. Dear God, thank you for gimme a life!